The enchanted path of the damned

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2008-08-02T02:47:00.000-07:00

I am officialy moving my blog!
*Clap**Clap* Finally!
Much thanks to huiyee!!!

New blog: www.mileaf.blogspot.com !

2007-12-19T05:28:00.000-08:00

Konbanwa minna-san,

Hmm...let's see what's cooking...

Not much actually, just tons of holiday homework left undone...

I really am going to suffer...going to try finishing all the work before chrismas so that I could go out.

I really want to go out and have some fun on chrismas, and take some photos for Anna.

She used to like the decorations at Orchard Road. So I figured to photos of it and send it to her.

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I got really really bored the day before,

and I came up with some really really crazy idea...

I came up with the idea of a gulid...Oh my gosh...

It is more like just a group...

I am the founder and the co-founder is Canrolii...a.k.a Jovey.

I have officially decided to name the gulid Silverbells.

This idea of a gulid popped up to me when both me and Jovey were slacking at TM...

Then what does the guild does?

NOTHIHG!!! Well yet. I have plans but haven't brought it out for discussion yet...

I can't believe how silly I got...

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Oh ya...Christmas got sick...and can't go to out with Jovey and gang...

This is one of the gathering that I actually felt like going...but can't...ah well...

Hmm...going to change blog soon too...

why? because the address to this blog is too damn long ...
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2007-12-12T02:03:00.000-08:00

Well...hello!

Hehe...haven't been blogging in ages...and so much have happened...
Huiyee is now at my house and just reminded me to update...well that explains why I am here...=.=

Well...I have orginally planned to meet up with Huiyee at 8.am today to exercise at Bedok Reservior Park...
However, it rained...and we had to cancelled it...
Instead we went to work out at the gym...
It was our first trip to a gym(well other than the school gym...) and we were both stunned...
Most of the people in the gym are growns-up...it made me feel rather awkward to be there...

Well...I figured that I have done the most stupid thing in my life...
I worked out on an empty stomach...
I was constantly reminded of that fact by my growling stomach...Wahh...

...I am currently trying to complete my holiday homework and would update tomorrow...
:D

2007-10-29T06:53:00.000-07:00

Yo!

Nope this blog ain't going die just yet!

Forgive me for not being on my computer lately...a bit too lazy.

Ah well...have gotten my result back and asked to drop pure science...not a big deal actually sinced I have thought about it before...but somehow I just feel like asking my tarots card...and it's pretty scary how it is so accurate...well as accurate as can be for the what represent the past....

Maybe I consulted it due to the influence of Rental Magica...

so here what's the card says when I asked if I should continue pure science...should I work hard or should I just give up...

Pass to present: Reverse strength
Reverse hanged man
present to future: Reversed judgement
Hermit
Future and final outcome: Reversed fool
The high priestress...

so I had to work hard!

I've put in my heart in this reading and I hope it works...since it is so accurate with the pass I will put my trust in my reading.

To other it might seems stupid...but I am willingly to work hard and trust my heart!

2007-10-19T06:50:00.000-07:00

Konbanwa!

I had a really tiring day today. Well not those kind of dead-tired kind of tired but the had a busy and fun day kind of tired.

Since today is E-learning day, we do not have to go to school! The downside is, we still have to complete assignments anyway and in limited time too. We were to log on to asknlearn at 7am. I logged on on 7.05 a.m. Well...my laptop was (and still IS) very lag. Going to get Gordon to help me take a look at it...

I was damn irratated (found out what it really meant from the dictionary...nope it doesn't mean curses but to highlight your annoyance and irratation...it is impolite and informal. It is also used to emphasize things...so dear Juniper...it isn't excatly foul...just rather rude...well...I guess...) my laptop kept lagging and I can't complete any assignment on time...I just got so pissed off that I just skimmed through the assignments...Please...in future if you(the school) wants to give this kind of assignment...give us more time! Please take into consideration that not everyones' computer are lightning fast.

After the agony of racing for time, I finally managed to complete my assignments. Went to read Manga then met Huiyee to dine in Nihon Miru. We ate the buffet! It was damn nice...but I didn't get my money worth as I was full soon after some Sashimi (hope that they died in peace...I seriously want to eat as little meat as possible...and turn vegetarian if possible...poor animals didn't even offend us...but truth is...they are part of a food chain...no matter what they will die being eaten by us or the cute shark or killer wale...).

Went window shoping at Century square first. Huiyee had to rush to the toilet as she had a tad too much to drink. Then played stacker at the acrade...I was extremly close to winning the 'major prize'...just one damn box away...but ah well...
We coincidentally bump into Shuwen at CS and her first reaction was...'Oh shit!'... ... ...Ah well...

Met up with Jovey later on after Huiyee finished buying her belt at X craft... We had to pratically drag her out of her damn house away from the damn computer...There is only so long you can live and there is only so long your friend might be with you! Spend more time with your friend not your computer!Plus it is unhealthy to face the computer 24/7.

Went on to have fun at Tampines acarde (been to acarde lots lately...but I only actually spent today...had been trying to cut off on spending too much on acarde...). Browsed through 77 street,mini toons, precious thoth and popular! Met with my dad and ate dinner (not me...him was too damned full...had dessert though...) Huiyee left in the middle...promised to sms when she reached home but forgotten...bought two books...The northern light and The subtle knives...a trilogy...another trilogy I bought before that was The magician, The novice and The high lord. Argh...just started on the book and there was so many foreign words that I resigned myself to the fate of referring to the dictionary every one mintue...

Am now blogging and compiling a list of vocab for the book...so that I will understand the book...argh I'm such a noob...by the way does anyone knows what's a decanter and dais? lol I do now! (Irratating task...damn annoyed)

Well...had been a long post...suppose so...
Huiyee please do remind me to post a blog for the NYFH forum...or else this blog might just be in damnation...(check the dictionary)

Well oyaisuminasai minna!

2007-10-14T09:34:00.000-07:00

Wow...I'm actually updating...all thanks to the constant reminder from Huiyee...and of course because Anna finally updated her blog!

Just read Jovey's blog and found out what happened. Lighten up the mood a little wouldn't you!? Anna, relax! About your brother...don't worry too much. He would be fine...me and Jovey would be casting health spells for him! :D Well at least she would be...I don't know any spells...well maybe I can give him some of my luck? I did survive viral fever twice...minor thing...but it almost finished me off...argh stupid fever...thank my lucky stars my father knew someone who could help...

The hospital ain't going to help much...try organic food and a balanced diet...No more oil and cooked food. That's what helped alot of the patients or so I've heard from Kampung Senang...
Seriously...the doctors can't do much...argh...all they did give me when I had viral fever was panadol and god knows Antibiotes...(don't know how to spell that) and of course the drip...and damn all of those was useless...except the drip...I thank god at least there was the drip...argh...

Hmm...maybe I should ask the person who helped me if he knows of any cure...He did cure a lot of 'uncurable' disease before...He even helped someone that is akin to a vegetable for a few years to recover... ... ...Hmm...I should really ask...

Going out tomorrow to parkway! EAT AND SLACK!!! EAT AND SLACK!!! YAHOO!!!

Damn...I'm demented...

signing off for now...
crystalleaf
Oyasuminasai

2007-10-14T08:44:00.000-07:00

Damn...Do I really have to do this?...
Well...I guess I have to or else I will get haunted by hantu...

Tagged by Huiyee to do this...thing

List the top 5 things you wish to get for your birthday:
1. Pass Physics
2. Pass A math
3. Violin(not possible is it...I don't even know how to play one...)
4. To kick people who thinks that I'm dumb to Mars...(Though I'm not clever...I'm not dumb either!...Idiotic yes...Dumd...NO!)
5. Violin lessons(Not possible...can't even cope with the piano...so maybe a violin music disc instead)

1.The person who tagged me:
Huiyee

2.Your relationship with him/her:
Friends

3.Your first five impression of him/her:
1.Quite
2.Evil...(for making me do this!)
3.Good in sports
4.Endearing
5.Helpful

4.The most memorable things he/she has done for you:
...Too many to count...hmm...getting lost just to get me a dounut?

5.The most memorable words that he or her said to you:
UPDATE YOUR BLOG...

6.If he/she becomes your lover.will you?
Dude...we'll both straight...

7.If he/she becomes your lover what he/she has to improve on?
Dude...We're still straight...

8.If he/she become your enemy what will you do?
...Cry...

9.If he/she become your enemy the reason is:
How the hell would I know if it had not happened yet?

10.The most desired thing you'll like to do for him or her now is?
Updating my blog...

11.Your overall impression of him/her is:
Cool

12.How do you think the people around you will feel about him or her
...Is that question even structured correctly? ...Cool!

13.The character you love about yourself
Down right blunt!

14.On the contary, what are the character you hate about yourself
Hmm...it is stated in my blog duh...go check the profile...

15.The most ideal person I would like to be:
Me! lol! I would really like to be able to stay true to myself...

16.For the people who cared and liked you, say something to them...
WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY CARED AND LIKED!!??? That means they no longer care and like...argh...thanks and sorry for being the terrible person I am.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people you wish to know how they feel about you...
1.Huiyee
2.Anna
3.Jovey
4...
5....
6....
7....
8.......
9............
10............

Let's face it I'm quite anti-social...

2007-09-01T07:37:00.000-07:00

...I haven't been blogging...
Cos' I'm always tired...
Lol...like a 80-years-old lady...
Sianz...

I wonder if I should be bothering about this...
I don't even think I want to continue...
but what can I do...
I want to help but my help was thrown away...
I want to ignore but...then it might get worse...
so what should I do?

LOL...no one even know what I am referring to...
But just as well...I don't what anyone to know...I just want to vent...

Let's see what I've got for my birthday present...
Present rank is by when I get...

1st: Adell gave me a billabong pencilcase
2nd:A jizsaw puzzle from Feng Mao and Jovey
3rd: Marcus and Sean for going to Jovey house to eat what she cooked...
4th:Bookshop Aunty gave me a new handphone pounch!!! Nice...

... ... ... ... ... I don't know what else to say...lol...

HUIYEE!!! HELP I DUN WAN TO FA MEI (rot) YET!!! WAHHHH

Oh ya...went SAKAE SUSHI yesterday with Jovey,Javier,Jia Zhen and Jeremy...the J lots...
Was in a very lousy mood...
Still in a lousy mood...
Over things that are nearly stupid...
...Really...I want to give up le...but just...it's just not right...

Had math tution today...
My new tution teacher is damn cool!
She is so smart and totally agrees that school life sucks!
She also agrees that mother likes to nag...!
Wa!!!!

And Mr. Lim is so cool...he not only know how to play the piano...he also know how to play the violin...
He should be a music teacher instead...a private music teacher...he will be much less boring that way...
No offences...but his lessons are very monotonous...
But I like it more now because he let us have quiz...those kind of group quizzes...
MUCH BETTER THAN SITTING ON THE CHAIR AND ROT AND DECOMPOSE TO DEATH!!!
He should organise more of this things...it helps us to learn better...well at least it helped me to learn better...
I'm a lousy student...

I'm also not a very good friend...but I am still trying to be a good friend...so why is it still like that...I don't get it...
WTH...

Bye le la...Nagging le loh...lol feel like speaking Singlish now...cos' marcus say I have lots of spelling error...at least spelling error is forgivable if you use Singlish...

signing off...crystalleaf

2007-08-01T04:43:00.000-07:00

Wahaha...

Most must have thought that my blog have decompsed and rot! (as quoted from huiyee...)

And I've thought so too...

But..I am updating here to entertain my dear friend who found my blog funny...

lol...

Okay here are the things that are on going...

1.lots and lots of remidials
2.lots and lots of quizzes and test
3.little time for computer...

Depressing ain't it!?

I didn't even get the chance to update my fanfiction! Oh the horror!

I think that sooner or later the kids here are going to go bonkers...not that we are all that sane to begin with.(haha)

Well...it is finally august! Yahoo! I am going to be able to make my identification card this month! I am finally going to get that pink(dreadful...no offence to pink lovers) card! And I can boost that I am officially a young adult...

There I go being random...been rather random this past few days...

Been eating lots of ramen too! Addictied to Naruto...the anime and manga mine you not the fish cake!

And dear dear Anna...where have you been? I haven't been able to contact you for soooooo longgggggggg has a rattle snake or kangaroo attacked you?Hopefully not...but if you just plain forgotten to keep in contact with me...oh boy will you wish that the rattle snake or kangaroo had gotten you...

Off I go...bye bye

Revamp

2007-06-20T04:41:00.001-07:00

Just redid the blogskin because there was something wrong...

Scroll left...explore the blog yourself I know we're all smart people here:D

Leave a tag okay:D

2007-06-17T23:11:00.000-07:00

Hey... long time no sea!!! Lol...
I haven't been updating lately...cos' I was watching anime...
Lazy as a pig (no offence to pig)
I had always berated Anna for not updating her blog but here I am not updating mine...shame on me :D
Well this entry here is delicated to Anna to let her know how we're doing!

For the first two week we had the June holiday program. It sucks...
But we did get to complete some of our assignments! We also had math with Miss Koh!
We had them on Monday and Tuesday but me and Jovey skipped the one on Monday.
HEY!!! HOLD YOUR HORSES!!! WE HAD A VALID REASON OKAY!!!
We were on a course at NEA!!!
We have completed the Enviroment Champions Presentation Skills Workshop
and are now officially endorsed as an Environment Champion!!!
Well...at least that is what the certificate said... =.=

The lecture was quite boring because we already had many training on
presentation skills...WTH...Jovey even won an award before...=.= and I had
Service learning training...& leadership workshop before...

We had put up a skit for the workshop and got praised for your Inner Angel
and Demon struggle!!! YA!!! Cos' the ideas mine :D (avoid rotten tomato and vegetable thrown) WHAT!!! TRUE WHAT!!! *Glare at the people who threw things*
And damn...I lost $10 and was so upset...wanted to watch a movie with that...
Ah well...I suppose Disney will air the Pirates 3 sooner or later...so I'll just wait.
Well...met up with my father afterwards to get my keys...cos' both of my parents aren't home...he gave me enough money to watch a movie and eat but...
I wasn't in the mood to watch anymore so we ate Ramen!!!
Damn...stupid Naruto...watch le also feel like eating Ramen...
And if you are wondering who are 'we' we refers to me,Jovey and Juniper ^^.

Okay I am being long winded but I haven't update in a million years so forgive
me for my ranting! (why the hell do I sound so perking?)

Okay Okay let's see what's cooking next!

Well...we went out for a gathering...watched two movies in a row...=.= and no Anna...we aren't rich...

We wanted to watch Men in White at first, a ghost comedy but since it starts later, we went to watch shriek 3 first...(didn't want to watch that at first...)
'We' refers to Me, Jovey,Jazlin,Marcus,Kunlong,Sean,Yee Wei, Wei ren, Javier...and maybe somemore ppl I could not remember...pls forgive me...
(avoid flying frying pans...)
WHAT!!! I HAVE THE MEMORY OF A GOLDFISH ALRIGHT!!!
(...there's defintely something wrong with me...might have read too much
fanfiction that contains this kind of humour...damn it...)
Then some of us who still have the money and the mood watched Men in white...
It was quite funny...okay it was okay...in my opinon by all the ghost died a
shitty death( quite unlike me to use this word but it is true!!! I defintely don't want to die that way!)
One died because she felt alseep next to the gas stove while cooking...
One died because a trunck ran over him due to his obession with a badminton
game...which sound so fake...cos' badminton games are mainly in doors...
Another died due to choking on a fishball...and no one helped...
And blah blah blah blah blah I will not bore you any futher with the details...

so I guess it is an arupt ending...but this post is damn long and damn boring le
la...so I'll end here!

And to Anna...you're missed and me and Jovey are both very sorry for forgetting
your file! We promise we will remember to buy your file before this holiday ends okay? Yap! All the best for ya! And give us your new address damn it!

2007-05-29T02:46:00.000-07:00

Holiday assignments that are completed

English mindmap: Qn: 1~5 (completed 2a and 2b)
English composition
E math 10-years series
A math mcq qns

Holiday assignments that are incomplete

English mindmap: Qn:6~19
A math 10-years series( to ask for assistance and complete by late week 2 and early week 3)
Physics(to ask for assistance and compelete by week 3 or first 2 days of week 4)
Chemistry (project to complete by week 3)
Chinese( to complete by week 4 cos' is diary)
SS studies mindmap X2
SS studies SEQ and SBQ
E maths sclupture project(complete by week 3)

In progress and to complete by today or redoing

E maths (too ugly must rewrite)
English mindmap (also so ugly must rewrite with coloured paper)
English compo (ugly)
Going to complete another 4~10 mindmap OR complete SS(BOTH WORK)
OR Complete 2 english mindmap and SS (BOTH WORK)

Updating progress in another 2 hours...

2007-05-17T04:50:00.000-07:00

Haven't been updating...but anyways who else but Jovey,Huiyee and Anna read my blog...but anyways...but I guess I dun really want people reading this...

Face it...I don't trust them...
I won't waste unnecessary words on them anymore
They can blab all they want...but I've none to spare for those who aren't sincere

This is the message for thoses few.
This is what I have left.
This is what I felt.
This is what I want.
Which is away from them.

2007-05-04T06:52:00.000-07:00

Omg...Mr. David Lim is damn cool!!!! He's so cool!!! Today we had extract lessons...only a few of us stay backed till very late...HE IS SO DAMN COOL!!! HE KNOWS HOW TO PLAY LIKE EVERY SINGLE SONG!!! AND HE CAN JUST PLAY ANY SONGS AFTER HEARING IT ONCE OR TWICE!!! HE'S SO COOL!!!

Haha...Edwin's school uniform got torn...lol...everyone was like laughing at him whenever we see his shirt...haha lol...for futher information consult Kuro Neko Fan...okay fine Canrolii...

...Oh ya I've got my ear pieced...damn it...got brain-washed by Jovey...can't think of anything else...too tired...update again later.

2007-04-28T03:56:00.000-07:00

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...Saturday sucks.....
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...My mood sucks like hell now...no idea why...

Wanted to kill someone...but I don't know who.

Ah well...anyways going to talk about two things that I am in love with...

1. My NEW NOTEBOOK (OMG I JUST LOVE IT)
2.My NEW PIGGY BANK!!!! It is literally a pig...Whenever I makes a deposit it will onik at me...so cute isn't it?

...okay fine boring isn't it...

Am so angry that it didn't rain today...don't know why...maybe because the rain makes it cooler?

Or yah...the canal incident...those people are REALLY STUPID (no offence) to go into the canal

STRAIGHT AFTER SCHOOL after Mdm. Tay warned them not to do so...She was so furious...

she had every right to be furious though...they even lied to her...ZzZzZzZzZ

They said that one of the boys shoes drop into the canal...it was so damn big...and they were at

the part where there is water...=.= how the hell did the shoes end up there anyways? Stupid lie

and Mdm. Tay believed them because one of the boys have a cut on the leg...they said that

there were trying to help the boy...cause he fell while trying to get his shoes...whatever...

Hopefully people will grow more sensible....
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To Kuro-Neko Fan
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Nope this nickname suits you...Don't bother to make me change it to Canrolii...unless you

tell me that you are not a Kuro-Neko Fan.

Plus a diao name is for a diao person or a 'orh' person...

And I might consider changing it if you tell me why I am scary...if you have no reason to say

that then I see no reason to change your nick :D
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Feel free to ask me any questions...
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I bid you goodbye

2007-04-27T05:36:00.000-07:00

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Morning
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Bought lots of Hi-chew and gave to friends and classmates as good luck charms...childish yes...

but I'm in the spirit to be childish...but it is also a friendly gesture.

I want to be childish this few weeks...cause too depress few months...what kind of reason is that

I don't know...kind of stupid...and no...I'm not stupid...just in denial...denial that time flew by so

fast...every second that pass...there is a possiblility of me dying...and I know...that things would

go on normally even without me. So I'm not that scared...Ask me to choose to die in my sleep or

suffer immense pain for two hours...I would choose to die...

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English Exam
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Damn I've screwed up...wrote question 3: Home...

all the crap about dun-noe-what then only one paragraph about home...

and in the end...my character which actually suposesed to protray 'me' died...wth...

Hate it love it whatever it is...this is life and I hate it...but love it at times...because I can eat

delicious food...but hate it cos' it is so stressful...
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To Anna-Ko Ju-Shin
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Ignore that bitch...with your amiable personality...you will get to make friends soon...

the system there are a bit different...I guess that have a kind of status quo and a mass

mentality. When one hates it...all hates it...typical brainless fools...

If you want to fit in...try using their language = bitch, slut and bastard...you've admited that you

have heard them often...anywas...I'll give you something to look forward! okay so stay bright

preppy! haha...maybe nto preppy but cheery...

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Yak Yak Yak
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Finally able to understand and use my new phone...seriously...my old phone was ancient...not

that I mind it... And jovey corrected me...Jia Zhen cannot be the third pig as it is too smart for

him...ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ

And I'm holding up a poll... leave your answer at the tag...

1. Ct's 100% or more scary.
2.Ct's 50% scary and 50% friendly
3. Ct's 20 & scary, 10 % generous,10% crazy,20% lazy and 40% friendly
4. Others please state.
5. and if is scary state why...
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Syaonara for now

2007-04-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

Morning
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ZzZzZzZz Nothing much...a bit blur due to lack of sleep...ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz

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Assembly to Mac at Bedok interchange
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...Had fun chatting with Jia Ying about Manga...whao...she's read even more Manga then me...
I suppose so.

Wah...Jia Ying commented that I am scary...and Jovey TOTALLY AGREE. What the heck!I am not scary AT ALL...I am harmless...not totally harmless but harmless enough. Hahahaha.

At Mac, irratated Javier. Finally and he said that I COULD NEVER irrate him...and what's more I'm suppose to be the president of Ct.&Jo. Pte.Ltd...of course I could irratate anyone...

He resemble Donald duck to me...he walks like him and he sometimes look like him =.=

Donald is so funny. He can't walk properly, talk properly and sounds EXTREMLY FUNNY AND INCOHERENT when he FUMES and vent his anger...hahahahaha.

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General information
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Changed my phone.

Still sian

Extreme mood swing(laughed like mad and couldn't stop just now...)

Tomorrrow English test...Wth...hope don't fail...

Had a new nickname for Jovey=kuro neko fan

Javier=Donald duck

Jing Kai=Eldest of three little pig

Jeremy=Second of the three little pig

Jia Zhen= The youngest of the three little pig
(noticed that there are all of J...ZzZzZzZzZz)

And Kenneth Cheng is an obnoxious freak (for agreeing that I'm scary)

Yee Wei's a selfish and lazy bastard...(refuse to help me in physics...damn him)

I'm a selfish girl
Am no angel
way=crooked path
truth=lies
life=death
hatred is a fuel to live
dying is every second
living is to strive for own greed
denial is daily
illusion is hourly
cowardice every minute
Escape is forever
Fear is eternal

2007-04-23T07:06:00.000-07:00

ZzZz Decided to try keep my sentences short...

Today suddenly felt like should stop slacking...

Dragged Jovey to Mccafe to do all our 'due' homework...

Hack...going to ask Ms Lim to give us more time...to complete all the work...

YES JOVEY WONG MUM LAY WHO SPILLE CURRY SAUCE ON ME

I'm going to MAKE you DO all the work...

Today forced Jovey to do her chemistry theory...ZzZzZz not enough time to get her to do SS...

Dun worry...I'll get you to work on your english like hell...to make up for today...

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What happened at Mc...
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We did our homework...someone walk by...place a keychain on the table with a card...

ZzZzZzZ so damned stunned...Jovey too...but she recover faster...

That person meant for us to buy the keychain if we wanted...think that the person is somehow disabled...but I did not buy...cause too stunned...to even more...

Now revising for english, chemistry and history...see how long I can last...

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Adious(wrong...maybe) for now...

2007-04-09T04:18:00.000-07:00

I had quite an average today...well...it might be considered boring for most...
Felt so damn sleepy during the lessons...and "Drug Lord"(dunno how to sleep his name) was SLEEPING IN THE GOD DAMNED CLASS(no offence to christians...aplogise first...dun come sue me......if it is that serious I will cancel the word...but for now...)
...Mr.Lim told us that he went surfing in Thailand...he said that he could not even get 5 metres into the sea =.=. He said that he found it very hard to go agaisnt the wave...he then saw a foreign girl effortlessly get into the sea about 50 metres away from him...while he is still at 5 metres...he then asked around and finally found that when the waves come towards him, he should duck into the sea instead of trying to go against the wave just like that...=.= but still...he only managed to get 15 metres into the sea...I think that it is a great achivement seeing that it was his first try at surfing....If it was me...I would have been flung off the board at about 1 metres into the sea...if I could even get there...

Then we had math remedial...I went nuts...haha was so happy that I know how to do two questions the others don't know...but it was only fatorisaing(spell wrongly)...very long never do le...so it was no surprise they have forgotten...so...they know how to do all the pro one while I only know how to do the sec 1 or 2 work...=.= cannot blame me for lagging behind...cause I missed like...2 months of school...What the heck...

And I have finally come out of my sucidal-depression state...haha Jovey must be damn glad that she don't have to hear me talk about dying...haha she had to endure it last month...what the...how does she put up with that...but she still say that I am very Sad...(sadist...not that serious la...just like to laugh at other's mishap and laugh like siao if I think of how to cause one person's pain and misery...was laughing like siao when jovey 'input' an idea into my brain...she is the one who turned me sadist in the first place...=.= cause we were having sushi for lunch...then there was the all-so-mightly wasabe...she said that if we put that on 'Drug Lord's' nose, he would definitely stay awake(was so jealous that he could sleep in class and STILL get GOOD RESULTS...and most of all...he dare to sleep in class...which both me and jovey would have liked...) I laughed till my head almost fall off...and I kept suggesting that we should REALLY buy the wasabe and apply it to his nose...come on that would be so fun...well the thought of it at least...but don't worry we are not that sick to actually do it...though I was actually quite serious about it just now...
And I hope that someone would place the order for irratating people cause I am so damn bored...haiz...logging off..CRYSTALLEAF

2007-04-07T03:07:00.000-07:00

Wahhaha I haven't been updating...lol. Yesterday was supposed to watch Mr.Bean but in the end we(Jovey,Huiyee,me,Sean,Yee Wei,Edwin,Wei Ren,Marcus and Jeremy) watched Sunshine instead, cos Mr.Bean only start at 2 something...and we got that at around 11 plus or 12 plus =.= reach there so early for what...
I met up with Jovey for breakfast at Mc at around 8.30...she was late...but anyway she late also never mind because only I am eating. She ate the cake that was given to us from the day before...I managed to give the cake to someone else...cause if bring home I sure would not eat...dun want to waste the cake....plus my parents one caught flu the other one is coughing so cannot eat cake either...It was so funny. First everyone have to take one, then two, then three and then four before leaving =.=
Sunshine was average...the story plot was a noble cause I guess...but it was obvious that everyone will die even before we choose the movie I already know that. Say out that scold me dun give spolier...=.= but the movie was so predictable...it was nevertheless okay to watch.

2007-03-25T05:39:00.000-07:00

...my mind keep going blank all of a sudden...just like when I am writing this post...I wonder if it is possible. Maybe let me rephrase this...my emotion or I-don't-know-what feel so void,empty. It is as if I am not my usual self. It feels as if I am so blank...

Why do we have to live a lifestyle that we don't want?
Why do we want a life that we don't want to live?
Why do we have to trouble ourselves?
Why do we have to bother so much?
Why do we have to be happy when we are sad?
Why do we have to do what we are told?
Why do we have to study for a future and not build a future upon what we want?
Why do people no longer look to see who you are but what you appears to be?
Why do we have to act like we are oblivious when we know?
Why do we have to like what we do not like but forced to like?
Why do we have rights and wrongs but we can't tell?
Why do we mixed dreams with reality so we create a decaying world?
Why do people tries to please others but not understand them?
Why do people have to tell the truth when all there is, is a lie?
Why do the we view or weight money so important that we can throw away what we really want?
Why do we have to work as a profession that does not make us happy but rich?
Why do people bitch about life being bitchy when reality is the problem lies with they do not know what they actually want?

Have you ever think about why do you actually study for?
Have you ever think about why you really act as you do?
Have you ever think about how really contended you are?
Have you ever thought about how happy you really are?
Have you ever spare a thought about building a HAPPY future instead of a dream?
Have you ever spare a thought what is happiness?
Have you ever wonder if you could do something that you want but can't because you are told you can't? ( Be an artist or a writer)
Have you ever wonder why the world look down on some things and deem they a worthless profession?
Have you ever appreciated the cleaners that keep the place clean so you can walk around in peace?
Have you ever ever ever feel like you are a failure?

I feel like a failure but I am not alone.
I feel like dying but I am not.
I feel like giving up but I can't.
I felt and feel like crying and I did.
I want to change and I am trying.
I am sitting when I am told to stand.
I am waiting when I am told to run.
I am changing as the clock ticks.
No matter how it goes I will live.
No matter how hard it gets, I will run.
No matter how tought it is, I will stand.
No matter what they tell me I am me.
No matter how sad I am, I am SAD.
So when I am sad leave me be, so that I'll learn to stand on my own
I need time but time don't need me.
However still, I will give myself a break, so that I can continue and not crack.

How much question that is above you can answer? Tell me. send me an e-mail if you know me, if not tag me or ask me to your blog where you answer the questions.

How long do we have to wait till the Sun raise? We don't cause the Sun is always there.
Is the glass half-full or half-empty? It is full cause there is air to fill the space up you dolt.
These kind of questions are but foolish but we all are cause no one's a pefect butterfly.

2007-03-17T04:58:00.000-07:00

Since I am linking people, I figured that I should update. My mood is quite normal today EXPECT during the morning when I called Jovey and she was crying on the phone when I talked to her...and until now then I know what happened. She made me bloody worried cause she never tell me what happened straight away. After reading her blog then know that she fell ON a METAL paving which earned her a stich...ouch...read my profile and you will know...me no liking needles or injections...she earned both...poor thing...

Jovey = one of my best friend, kind sadist, good in art and is my granddaughter for dunnoe what reason plus is older than me not like I will admit that!

Dedicated to Jovey: Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
You look like a monkey,
And act like one too! *disclaimer I did not copy this song*

* And now the original one from me to you *

Happy birthday to you,
You're one year older,
You're more dense than ever,
congrates to you!

JOKING LA! don't be angry! this is the real one...

Happy birthday to you,
You're strike lottery,
You're be kind to me,
And share it with me!

Hope you like it...haha...

Today went for the pre rounds of the kindness cheer...was made to throw litter onto the stage...diao...and been forced to have to participate in the group photo...Our school entry rocks! Our cheer sucks but then the dancing part will made up for it! It is so damned pro...hip hop...BGSS ROCKS!

After that went bugis play maximum tune with gordon and huiyee...the freaking bastard beside me kept screaming...and saw lots of gothic clothing...=.= I like the gothic clothings...but then it is so werid to see them in Singapore...wish I can choose my own clothes too...almost all my clothes is my mother buy for me...but to me can wear can le...but now...my clothes all getting too small cause I grew taller! XD...so need new one le...going to bug her to buy me new clothes.

Later go eat delifrance...the person can't even assemble the sandwich properly! what the hell...I ordered the same thing in century square and I received the neatest sandwich I have ever seen...bet the other one at bugis didn't take home econ...no la is up to opinon...but the food still taste good...suggest you go try not bad.

Am so freaking tired...and Anna...never go online...she alive or dead also dun noe...haiz...Anna you online soon okay and update your blog!

2007-03-16T07:00:00.000-07:00

I am so upset today. Today Anna came back for a few hours...just to leave us forever...damn it! But on a more postive note, I have made up my mind to pick myself up from this 'mood swing period'. So...a good news for Jovey...I will return to normal very soon... if you STOP singing the sadistic song DEATH!!!!

Hmm...nothing interesting happened today...but some interesting things happened the past few days. (like real?not sure) went to celebrate Jovey's birthday yesterday...haha I only one refuse to watch the damned movie a.k.a Haunted school. I am not that stupid to spend six dollars and fifty cents and some other sums of money on snacks and drinks to watch a movie that I didn't watch...

Before watching the movie, we went for lunch...me and Jovey ate at a Japanese resturant which some idoits keep saying is expensive...to me is a reasonable price cause we ate quite a lot...plus most of the others things are toasted which I can't afford to eat. * note the can't afford is not money...but health okay? since at the Japanese resturant the food we ordered are not fried or oliy at all...not like the stupid chicken rice which caused me a day of agony...*

When the movie ended...I asked Jovey how was the movie...she said she watch only 1/4 of the movie...as good as never watch cause the movie is one and a half hour...she says that the effect scary...and she reads the subtitles...haiz...but I loathe horror movie after watching Chunky when I was in kindergarden...stupid la...the stupid toy going around to murder people in the most gruesomes ways...and plus I can...never mind...

Haiz...I am hoping to be able to get some time for myself...but seems like the discs that I rented will go to waste...just couldnt' get to watch them. yesterday went to celebrate jovey's b'dae, today went for workshop, tomorrow go for environmental club...

Nothing to really say...but then since jovey say I never update so I update loh...oh ya jacintha...sorry link you later...now I a bit too noob...need my friend help.

2007-03-09T04:16:00.000-08:00

I haven't been posting...why...cause nothing is happening...school holiday starts tomorrow. It makes no diffrences since I need to return during the holidays to catch up. I am so damned...yesterday went to sent Anna off. And the bunch of idiots sent her off in either black or white clothings, except me. They look like they are going off to a funeral.

Well...cannot blame them cause they don't know what happened...and I will not say what. I think I am getting a little more positive...at least now I scold kena sai instead of saying that dying is not a bad thing...so haha...not funny. =.=

I am getting sick of getting sick! May I be damned...(which I already am) so make that doubly damned if I get sick again...(which I am at least now am...stupid la shouldn't have eaten that fish burger...but I am so hungry... ) Haiz...my mother today also a bit sick. sianz...but got bad luck then will have good luck ma! So maybe my good luck coming later...JUST COME ALREADY...but later is better than never.

2007-03-01T03:54:00.000-08:00

Sianz...after monday never go school le...cause I am too damned! Sianz...at home sometimes don't know why will suddenly have difficulty breathing or have chest pain...siao le la...

Today kena nagging/teaching by my parents...they keep saying that I should not be stress...test fail then fail...they don't care...that I know. They also don't give a damn if I can go universtiy...haha...but then I give a damn leh...how can I not...the more I try to appear relax...the more stressful I become...damned life...cause now no certificate=no job=no money=no food=die...

I know I got seriously sick because I haven't been sleeping well+stressed+eat something that is not good but then how can I not be stress...Haiz...sianz la...don't think le the more I think the more stress I am going feel.

Haiz...what the heck...my parents...are really one of a kind in Singapore...other parents ask people go test do well...my parents ask me go test fail then heck care...don't bother...fail then fail...see...my upbringing like that...Anna so you finally see why I am like that...My father also teaches me things like...if you eat full already...then don't eat...and if the food I don't like...also never mind...don't eat...order another thing...siao la...see my upbringing like that ...see my life so diao...and then the textbook...other parents angry and nag because they don't like their child to put it under the table...my parents is angry and nag because I bring it back...cause they say the bag so heavy...I bring here bring there= siao...then I say...put under table might get lost...my father say...then never mind buy new one...siao...mind you I am not from a rich family!!!! Well...am not from a poor family either because my family is small mah...

Haiz... my parents like that so naive...haiz...I see already also headache.whatever la the most important thing now is for my health to get better...all the others doesn't matter...oh ya another primary school classmate sister died...damned...on newspaper......people from my primary school so suay this month...

2007-02-26T05:51:00.000-08:00

I must be crazy to update again...now doing homework...what the heck...just found out my primary school friend's father kena murdered...featured in newspaper some more...what the hell...so sad for him...but he not sad...what the hell...

Pray for him no matter what religon you are from...Peh Jia Hao's dad...sad la...Peh Wen Bao...

So sad...what the hell...why is bad things happening all around...hope things will look up...

2007-02-26T03:26:00.000-08:00

Haiz...don't know why I am updating when I have 3 test tomorrow...I siao le la...

Today, finally I am able to return to school...but then keep spacing out...one reason is cause I don't know what the teacher is talking about...another reason is I keep feeling dizzy...haiz...this is life...cannot blame anyone...

And I must thank Jovey! She helped me alot! She helped me with my bags...stupid thing...have so many test have to bring textbooks home...I don't usually mind...but then I now walk a bit and talk for a while also exhausted...so how...haha take taxi home la...my mom approve one...but I heartache...cause she is using my Ang Bao money...sianz...Jia Zhen today show off his Ang Bao money...said that he got near a thousand dollars...bloodly hell...

Anna! You forgottened the physics notes! haha she forgottened to bring my physics notes for me...she had also forgottened her own notes...sianz...almost died from trying to copy ALL the notes...then gave up... cause cannot bully recovering patient!

Today...sorry to all the classmate because I brought thermometer...haha...kena scolding from Ms Koh because I brought the thermometer...sianz...so embarrsing...whatever...another spelling mistake...haiz...why I find my life so meaningless...but then I still scare to die...very very scared of dying...damned...I don't mind dying in my sleep...but if I die in an accident...I tell you...I will become a ghost and haunt the person responsible for my death for his three cycle of life...haiz...Jovey going to scold me sadist again...

I really hope that I can at least pass some of the test...chinese test cannot fail...fail le sure kena kick out of the class one...I don't want to get kicked to 3/1 class...rather stay in 3/2...cause I cannot stand 3/1 chinese lesson...everyone making fun of...you-know-who....poor thing...never mind...not I bully can le...

Today, Gordon and Jovey so mean...go bully Mr.Teo...go walk pass his sec 1 class then...ahem...I also walk pass with them...so I also very mean but at least I never make that sound...sianz...so mean...but it is obviously not Jovey's idea...so you know the mastermind...

Ending le la...still have to study for ALL the testes...O.o...wish everyone good health and luck...prosperity...and good grades...(THERE! AT LEAST I SAID SOMETHING GOOD!!!) bye!

Haha!Hi!

2007-02-25T03:17:00.001-08:00

Wahaha! Finally am able to have a proper blog...thanks to my friend Canrolii...I am now recovering...got sick for aboutg 2 weeks...got hospitalized...6 days or a week...sianz...so suay...want to go camp...leg injured...want to go enjoy Chinese New Year...got into hospital...come out hospital...something bad happened to my friend...what the heck...

The day before...my father want to bring me go temple pray...I don't want to go...so he go with his friends...wa...I so suay when it comes to health...pray also no use...

Why I so scared of injection...cause enter hospital twice...once is two years ago...the other is just a few days ago...almost everyday change drip...of course I scare...I not scare then funny...

So many days never go school...sianz...go back still have to climb the stairs...I where got the strength...go back school have to stay awake for the lesson...I won't be able to do that...sianz...still have to do duty...bully sick people...

Jovey=Canrolii... She is so kind...today they all=Jovey, Anna, Yee Wei, Jian Hao and Edwin come my house do project...I never do anything much...but then later we gamble...I lost a bit but won back...haha...stupid...la...Valentines day chocolate...mother throw away le...so sorry to all the friends...nvm I eat the chocolate then sick...better you all don't eat...

So worried about school...I sure cannot catch up...and then I so tired...Hopefully tomorrow can pull through without falling asleep...and I will not be so damned...my health will be better...and the damnedness be passed to ?...

Everyone take care!